steph.vaganza

Thanks pi^^ Though u could simply scold me for the mistake i’ve done, u chose to hold it back. U cherised me instead of showing ur disappointment. I know I had done a silly mistake… But u didnt scold me, u werent angry. U motivated me instead of showing ur disappointment. I am really glad to have u as my dad. I promise u not to do the same silly mistake and I will try my best to satisfy u. I will do my best to make u happy. Cox i know i will never be able to repay back of what u have given me. What u have given me is just too much. i cant afford to rapay it back.Even if I give back the same thing to u, it wont be enough. NEVER. Ur love is too huge, ur patience is too great… I am just a silly daughter who do mistakes which sometimes will disappoint u. thanks for ur care and wisdom, thanks for the motivation. I will do my best to make u happy FOREVER!!
I dont want to make u sad. I want to make u n mami proud. I wont take things u’ve given me for granted. I will treasure ur trust. I LOVE U , mami and papi ^^

-_-, hari ini management essay di bagiin dan Neeru (nama tutornya) manggil muridnya satu persatu dan ngebahas knp kita bisa dapet nilai sgni dll. Nah, pas giliran gw, dy liat gw, *senyum… Gw liat dy *nyengir* " OK, Steffi, now is your turn, come darling! I’m not really happy with ur work! I’m expecting more from u n Thais!" bla bla bla… trus gw maju ke depan, udah gitu kita bahas knp gw bisa dapet CREDIT. tiba2 during the discussion, dy corat coret final work gw. NGEGANTI gradenya jadi DISTINCTION!!! trus gw bingung, lho " Neeru, nilai gw yg mana satu? D / C?? Knp u ganti?? trus kata dy " U deserve a D actually!yg u liat itu grade u yg bakal gw record, believe me ( dy nulis D)" Wah, masa sih? knp?? kalo deserve D koq u awalnya kasih gw C?? Trs dy bilang sebenernya essaynya bagus cmn endingnya kyk kebakaran jenggot! Tp gw bisa argue ke other markers kalo steffi deserve a distinction. Lagian Gw ada evidence klo u deserve dapet D so I will fight for ur Distinction. U sampe 1500 words ga?? " tanya Neeru. Dan gw stuck diem.. gw jawab dgn jujur " rasanya engga" dalem hati gw  *padahal gw yakin mmng engga smp 1500 orang cmn 1300an gtu koq, waktu itu ngerjainnya  aja kacau banget deh, ga da inet ga da printer dll." TIba2 dy liatin gw, mikir… "SORRY steffi gw ga bisa kasih  D, coba aja kalo u bluffing ke gw u ada 1500 gw bakal kasih u D. U sih terlalu jujur" LHO????
gw balik jawab ke dy "Ya udah la, gpp Neeru, soalnya gw jg mmng ngerasa essaynya ga gtu well planned koq." *SENYUM padahal gw agak dongkol. Hahahaha….
MMng sih sebenerna gw bisa aja bohong ke Neeru gw udh exeed 1500 and get a D, tp ga tau knp gw ngerasa gw ga desreve buat get a D. Soalnya cmn 1 yg dapet D di kelas gw dan masa gw cmn gara2 bluffing bisa nyamain dy? to compare my work and his, I know how much more effort he has put in to get tht grade so I wont defeat his hard work… Jadi gw mmng terima koq kalo engga dapet D jg. Akhirnya gw dapet C+. Hahaha……..
dan gw engga menyesal sama sekali pas bilang jujur apa adanya ke Neeru. GW ga mau dapet nilai palsu yg seharusnya engga gw dapet. Jadi next time I will try harder. ^^

I feel very upset today….
I don’t feel comfy and homey today. It’s just awkward.
Life is never flat and perfect. Sometimes it’s rocky….. Sometimes it’s wavey and swinging.

But I remember my mum saying : " If u’r feeling upset or unhappy, don’t show it to others"
SMILE when u’r upset and LAUGH when u’r happy. So u will bring happiness to others. NOt everyone knows ur sorrow, so whats the point of showing those bad energies…
U will bring the atmosphere down!! Thus show ur happiness to others instead of the  unhappiness. HOpefully they will feel happy and comfy to be with u….
But it’s hard sometimes. When inside u feel something bad and u try to smile and pretend…….. SO if I always seem to be happy, it doesn’t mean i never felt upset… I just don’t want others to be influenced by my bad mood….  (*because definitely I dont want others to be moody and bring my mood down as well) I just don’t want to think in a -ve way. I just want to be optimistic…. I’m looking at everyone’s beauty not at what they’ve done wrong….
SO I will  PRETEND that u DID it UNCONSCIOUSLY ^^  though u never say sorry or so on… I will still forgive u and forget about it today!! Forgive u Straight after I finish typing this sentence!!! If u repeat it again in the future, I will suggest u on how u could solve and do it in different ways and hold my patience back tightly…
I know my limit as well I cant tell u much because we just met and ur not my besties… If u were, i will be angry with u because I CARE, but too bad I can’t ’cause u ARE NOT….
But i still think if u keep repeating it, i will tell u and open ur perspective so u will stop making me upset…. BUT it wouldnt be nice. I can be harsh at times. But i wont do it till my patience’s rusting…… I’m still considering ur feeling….
I wont be angry with u, wont hate u (*far from it actually) , I wont be upset anymore!!!
Because u didn’t harm me, and its not a mistake at all…… it’s just the way u treat me, it’s racist and…………… ah.. well…. maybe it’s not. maybe it’s yes.
YOU think for urself. I will keep holding my opinion. I have Forgiven u….  -and the story END-

*i feel so much better after blowing it out* Taaaaaaarrraaaaaaaaaa ^^ hahahaha….

Yesterday I was very embarrassed!! Firstly I  made an appointment with Rian to meet at Huntingdale station  at 11m ( planning for buying phone ) … AND I Forgot to wait for him there, what I did was as usual, i continued my journey to city all alone and On my way in the train… OOOPPPS! I should stop at Huntingdale and wait for him! errr… *panickly i called him : " Ian, I am heading to city, change the meeting point, not HUntingdale, go straight to city" He was listening to me and answered: " u’ve reached HUntingdale and left me, now?? Wad’s the time now? NOW IS JUST 10 am!!!! And I just woke up! "
(kebodohan no 1)

Secondly Andrew msg me and asked where i was… When i wanted to reply him, my battery went flat! Humph what a day!  ( kebodohan ke 2)

Thirdly, while Veby, Andrew, Christian, Rian and me were waiting for a tram to DFO, we saw chestnut *spelling?* and tempted to buy it. None of us wanted to take and spend ur money (*kita ini org2 kikir) hahaha…  so we decided to buy one pack of it and share. Eventually each of us paid 90 cents. AND u know how small 1 pack is??!! each of us only got 2 seeds of it and we felt like being cheated man! $4.5 jux for those tiny winny seed! Hahaha… ANdrew was so funny when Rian asked: ‘ Ndru u mau lagi ga? masih nyisa nih" Andrew:" Ya mau lah, gw baru makan 45 cents gw!" hahahahahaha…. he was joking niwae. (no translation as it wont be funny if translated in El).

Forthly, when we went back to melb cen, i realised tht my 2 hours ticket had expired so i used Veby’s and she couldn’t get into the gate. So we tricked the inspector, hahaha…. ( but i bought a new one after it). *melakukan dosa sebelum ke grj*

And lastly, I xxxx xxxx infront of x xxxx (*sensored). They laughed at me!! And i laughed at myself to!!! I think my face turned red already and i was very extremely seriously went mad. Lesson learnt: it’s good to laugh at yourself sometimes. ^^ hahaha….

Oh, yea btw in church RIan slept!!! becox he slept at 4 am and didnt have much time to rest. While doing the group dicussion, Ko Ivan asked him "so how bla bla bla…?"
*duh ribet pake inggris ngejelasinnya*
RIan answered : " aduh, maaf ko tadi saya tdr, kmrn tdr kemaleman jd engga ngederin daritadi!" GUBRAK** jujur amat sih… hahaha seengganya laen kali pura2 pinter aja angguk2 setuju sama org atau kasih org ngmng duluan atau apalah gtu… Hahaha….
Oh ya , talking about ko Ivan…. jd ga enak sama dy, tadi pagi gw tlp dan bilang ternyata tgl 2 agustus itu ( ada outing dan gw udh daftar) gw ada test maths di hari dan waktu yg sama…. jd mungkin gw telat datangnya jm 12an baru nyusul ke lokasi… gw tanya di mana ya lokasinya, nanti gw naik train aja nysul sendiri… dy bilang, nearest trainnya itu di Wiiliamstwon, tapi kalo dari train station itu agak susah to get there. nanti kalo udh nyampe st nya tlp aja ke no dy ntar dijemput.
Gw sih engga enaknya soalnya selalu kalau gw nanya apa gtu ke ko ivan ujung2nya jadi dy yg nganterin pake mobilnya..  Padahal maksud gw itu gw mau pergi sendiri cmn butuh guide aja how to get there…dy sering nganterin pulang dari grj… *jd merasa merepotkan* Nah, makannya gw ngajak tmn2 buat outing biar ada yg nemenin gw ke sananya, seengganya ko Ivan engga usah repot2 ngejemput gw sendiri… kan ga enak kalo terus2an ngerepotin beliau.. Hahaha….
maka itu Veb, Chirs, Ian, CAd, Ndru, WIn, kalo bisa u pada ikut jg ya… Biar menambah keceriaan jg, HAhaha * jayus*

Ya udah la, segini dulu aja cape ngetik,….
Thaaa^^

Akhirnya Accounting test beres jg!! Untung gw bisa ngerjainnya, padahal kemarin bljnya main2 gitu. Dan satu hal yg bikin gw merasa tdk puas: gw engga ngerti apa2 koq tapi bisa kerjain testnya ya? *meragukan* Padahal pas ngeliat Thais, Adit, Ron, Yuen diskusi ttg account, gw dah yg makan coklat, main2, ngbrol2 ma chery, autis sendiri deh gw!  BAHAKAN buku POA pun ga bawa. Alhasil cuman gw yg sama skali ga revise di skul. Tp koq santai banget dan g carefree ya gw? Apa jgn2 ini pertanda gw dah jenuh, bosan, letih, lesu ke skul ya?? HAHAHA, ga mungkin, gw slalu smangat ke campus koq ^^ dan gw definitely masih mau blj byk hal ! Gw liat tmn2 gw ternyata rajin2 banget ya…..
BAyanging aja Thais bisa sehari 4 jm di meja blj, blj dengan tekunnya. Adit jm 4 pagi belum tdr, blj dan bermain komp (*still ada bljnya, bikin mind map, summary, project), ronald: bikin his own summary dan GW??!! DUUUH, jgn di tanya deh! Gw blj aja cmn 1 chapter dan sisanya gw pasrah, paling project slalu on time , ga pernah b4 hand. SEriously what’s wrong with me! tp koq gw ga serem ya? ANEH!!
*harus mulai rajin lagi nih* - tuk tuk tuk -

OH, iya gw won a lucky bar dari coklat snickers yg gw beli di vending machine di common room. WAh, bener2 happy go lucky lho! dan ternyata gw iseng ma Thais nukerin itu kupon ke campus centre dan dy terima! alhasil dapet snickers gratis deh! wohohohoho
gw jd banyak makanan! Sampe lupa sama cup a cup yg di kasih si Andrew -_-’
wakakaka, untung ga di semutin! PAdahal baru aja kmrn ini rumah gw di serang semuttt! *menyebalkan*

Teachers, Tutors, Lectures please stop printing any more notes, stop giving us homework, stop global warming. Save our trees!  duh. T.T
Today i stayed at home for the whole day, diligently doing my assessment. =X
While doing them, I rembered what Arlha usually told me " DRINK much water to hydrate ur brain whenever u’re studying!" yea right, water is the only consumption for brain. but as time went on, i realized that actually my brain does consume a break time. SO i pampered my dear brain by taking nap!!!
I WAS AWAKEN by a call from Commonwealth bank in SYD…errr, quite dubious about everything  Peter ( as he is called) offered me. He asked me for the details and will call me in the following 2 days. IS he liable? Can anyone tell me? should I pick his call next time? he offers me to open a student account in Melb because my current account can’t be used for any transaction other than taking cash out. (*gw punya bikin di Commonwealth INDO, gabung ma nyokap dan logonya ATM bersama, wahahaha)
OK enough for blogging!!! GOt to be back to my assignmet.
Thhhaaa. ^^

Akhirnya gw nge post jg setelah sekian lama vacumm dari blog. ^^
Semenjak masuk Monash, smuanya jadi berasa cepet, skg aja udah sebulan gw di Melb. Perasaan baru aja kemarin datang… Skg tugas udah numpuk kayak cucian, padahal baru aja kemarin ikut orientation. Apa jangan2 gw terkena sindrom lupa-waktu-mia ya? atau ini gara2 tugas2 yg bikin gw terlalu sibuk?? Engga juga sih kayaknya, memang tugas gw banyak, tapi gw selalu main koq tiap weekend! Beda banget yah sama di Spore. Kalo di Spore gw bener2 sibuk, sampe hampir lupa kalau di kamus gw ada kata "MAIN"apa artinya main? lupa tuh! Kadang sampe jadi males main! Bener2 nerd deh! Malah weekend itu biasanya dibuat revision time *walaupun akhirnya jg buang2 waktu chatting* T.T tapi untungnya di sini gw sadar akan pentingnya live a balance life.
Oh, iya di sini koq nyari temen yang suka basket susah banget yah? Ada tapi cowo… Gw jadi phobia main basket ma cowo gara2 waktu itu main sama Eddiek,Eddy G, Eddy rumah, RObin, Prash, Thomas, Arlha, Irene. Pas si Eddiek lagi nge dunk, gw ada di bawah ring dan sikutnya dia puassss banget melandas di muka gw (*mata tepatnya) alhasil mata kiri gw bonyok kayak panda. PAs kedokter aja gw sampe malu sama dokternya. Dia kaget kirain gw abis tawuran sampe bonyok gtu, ato si dokter ngira gw itu korban child- abuse kali yah. Untung waktu itu lagi holiday, jd ga ke skul dengan mata bonyok. =P
Gw jadi  kangen main basket di Spore bukan karena the game tapi bonding timenya^^pulang2 dari main basket biasanya kita makan di ALameen, minum milo dinasour dan kadang2 ke rmh gw pd berenang or nginep.  malem2nya pas tidur pulas banget saking capenya!!! wuahhh ~  pokoknya dunia serasa indah karena basket ^^ eh salah deng, karena teman, haha…
Gw jd mau ke Spore kalo dec ga balik ke Indo, gw kangen ma chipmates dkk dan main basket bareng2 lagi or cuman sekedar makan roti prata di wisma atria jg gpp BAhakan makan di sakura yg suka nipu dan es potongpun gw rela koq! Wuahahaha…

NB: Xin Mei, sorry if I post it in Indonesian. Next post I will post in EL ^^

ON Sat met Franky to attend an Australian citizenship seminar which is located in the city. We actually had found the building BUT there was no entrance! So in the end went shopping… It’s Sooo irritating because i had sacrificed waking up very early, but couldn’t attend that silly seminar!! =(
but it’s ok since i shopped for some stuffs that i wanted, my mood got boosted. The shopping was nice but unfortunately Franky didnt get anything. =P actually he wanted to buy a hat to cover his new haircut (*which he claimed is too short). For me, I think his new haircut is ok.
Then, at 4.30 pm went to church ( MRII) in Lygon till about 7 30pm. Reached home at about 10plus.

The next day,on Sunday, Wake up early AGAIN, at 6 30am.
Planned to meet Isabelle & Randy to go to Camberwell 
( *spelling?). However Belle was too tired b’coz she’s too exhausted doing her project so she couldn’t join us.
I myself was too dozed off taking a bus, train & so on.
I walked to the bus stop like a zombie but for shopping, there wont be any words called tired for me! haha… And at the bus stop I met an Ang moh who is very nice & friendly! He was worrying tht the bus was delayed b’coz he was in a rush going to his working place in the city ( he’s a part time student). So we chatted while were waiting for the bus.At that moment,  I then realized how people in here & Spore are different! Here they are more like a society which always supports ppl in need.
Met Randy at 9 am plus and went shopping there. Got quite  lots of stuff.
At 5 30 pm Met Pattra & friends. He came from Sydney to have a break in Melb. Went to Natalie’s houase ( Pattra’s friend) and met her mom. She gave me some cookies to be eaten at home, she’s very nice! Again, see how ppl here are very friendly! Given the fact that i just met NAtalie’s mom for once but she treated me as if I have known Nat for a long time. So spent the time in City eatting Korean food till about 7 30 pm. Headed back home & reach at 10 pm.
My feet were very tired, and i ate a 2nd dinner at home as my homestay’s cooked for me already. 

Went to Monash College today & then went shopping to Chadstone Shopping Cntr with Kemmy & HIlda ( my homestay mates). They said it’s the biggest shppg cntr in Melb & is the nearest to our house. Well, for me it’s not very big compared to those in Indonesia but is probably bigger than in Spore’s. We carzily did a window shopping ‘coz was in a big SALE there, but still stuffs’re expensive here. Kemmy & I bought a jacket each. We ate at Nando’s ( is a Portuguese rest.) then at about 9pm headed home & was drizzling. I innocently took out my umbrella & both of them looked at me in a terror & shouted NO! at the same time ( in a way they both were funny!).They said the umbrella will either be blown by the strong wind or get broken. Hilda has borken 5 umbrellas in the last 2 years. Hahaha, poor Hilda. Anyway just to pour out my opinion about my housemate, Kemmy & Hilda. They both come from China & older than me. At first I thought they’re very serious & quiet but actually they’re funny, naughty, sneakY& talkative! =P
Especially when my aunt& uncle’re not at home, both of them will knock my door & sneakingly go to the kitchen to cook some dishes as much as they want, consuming many food, fruits! and by the time my host comes, the kitchen has been cleaned nicely! =P I guess only girls can do this! =P

Today’s my 3rd day in Melbourne & so far i’ve enjoyed my time here. I love the Melburnian ( as locals are called) way of life. They are helpfull even to strangers n are welcome to foreigners. They’re proud & happy to be able to answer ppl’s enquires & full-heartedly help ppl & are having a good sense of humour too. THAT’s LOVELY! I just feel like home here, i guess if i stay a lil longer here i’ll treat Melb as my 2nd home! Everybody welcome me very warmly & well. My homestay & my friends expecially, thanks to them from the bottom of my heart. I’ll do the same to ppl who just arrive here, just to make sure they will feel the same way as I was. Talking about my homestay,in my house there’s a gym & BB court!EXCELLENT, right? But right now i’m not really into exercising ’cause here’s winter & is  the time when everybody gets lazy into it! (*Steffi juga manusia^^*)
Can’t say much about my campus now since was only once there. I can only say that it’s HUGE.Today I went to the city &met Randy at Monash Caufield and toured around the city. ENjoyable& fun.
We ate a Thai meal which portion is HUGE buuuttt i managed to *almost finished it except for the onion.JUst for ur info meal here’s GIGANTIC, about a guy’s.I got lost on my way home but luckily Randy sent me home or otherwise I’m a dead meat by now! haha, jk. Along the way we  got lost, there was a winter-wind which made us feel like urinating. As if wind sips into our belly!SO we struggled finding toilets along the way home but unfortunately since it’s late most of them’re closed.( here the office hour’s mostly till 5 pm & by then they’ll close the public fascillities as well). SO we rushed to catch a bus home & halting that urinating feeling at the same time! that was funny. To make thing worse, we got lost while walked on the street. So we treated it as  a night jog! I’ll make a sudden end here since it’s getting late & cold. Bye2.